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Friday, 20 August 2010
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Blah Whatever
I've been eating like a total fucking pig the last few days. I hate everyone and everything. I don't fucking trust anyone anymore. People don't know how to keep their mouths shut, they don't know how to leave me the fuck alone to deal with my life the way I want and need to. I just urgh. I'm so fucking frustrated.
Wednesday, 18 August 2010
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8/17-8/18
No updates for today. No thinspo for today.
Im so discouraged. I feel like I'm never going to be thin.
I feel like I'm never going to loose this weight.
But I haven't stopped trying.
Anyway, I've spent all day today and will be spending the next whole day in the hospital with mom.
Her knees are hurting her so I'm going with her to make sure she gets there okay and then one ofmy friends is bringing us home. Sigh. Four hours sleep. Joy.
Monday, 16 August 2010
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8/16 Summary
Today wasn't as bad as yesterday. High on the calories because of mom's determination to feast me on DD but eh. Im not really feeling hungry at all anymore today. Which is good because I've had more than enough anyway. No eating binges. No splurging. I guess I'm doing a little better. I weighed myself last nigh, and I was weighed at the doctors today. I don't even want to think about it.
Thinspo :
ANNND. I'm kind of obsessed with keeping my boobs. I expect them to get a little smaller but I love them. they happen to be one thing I like about myself. I want to keep them. Is there a certain eating patter that will allow me to? Certain exercises?
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8-16-10
Small Orange Coolatta : 220
Apple Fritter: 400
Small Latte: 220
Total: 820
Gross junk food, I know. Mom was sooo determined to go to DD and have me eat something today. Not just once, but TWICE. Urgh. I'll prolly have something small later tonight.
Either :
One Glass of Orange Juice: 210
Pop Secret: 100
bringing my total to 1130
or
water: 0
pop secret: 100
total at: 920
orrr
i may just not eat anything. i'm not even feeling hungry.
Sunday, 15 August 2010
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Todays Summary & Thinspo
Was deff not the best day. I should have just let my mom have the BK they brought home. Not to mention I splurged like crazy last night on pretzels and jello. I'm really not doing as well as I'd hope. I know I set my cal limit at 1,000 but that seems like sooo much now. Do you know what I could be eating to get to 1,000 calories? How much FOOOD that is. Maybe I wouldn't feel like crap if it wasn't junk food. If it was fruit instead. I seriously have to look into getting some more good stuff in the house. Celery. Apples. Anything. Urgh.
Today's thinspo:
scalexdancer
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- Name: scalexdancer
- Member Since: 9/24/2009
